Conclusion.. Reflection For Better Tommorrow..

I dunno how to describe.. if say too directly, it may hurt ppl, if i dun say, I may get mad.. Some ppl are too childish or ignorant to think of the consequence..
Meeting u say dun want..
if got meeting u want to hurry up and wanted to go away..
Have no intitvate to find out your prob on your own..

Den near the end of the presentation, you tell me you are afriad to present on tt day. You ask me to give you more work. I give you the workscope which half of it is done by me. u ask me whether the whole workscope belongs to you. In fact most of your work is done by me or other.

You ask me whether u have done enough.. i did not reply.. den u say "actually i've done alot lor.." If you have done alot, den what the hell is the amt i've done.. step by step i've given u..in fact, if i do it myself, it would be faster..

I can confidently tell u i've done what i haf.. dun everytime come up to me to say i nv gif u this or tat, nv tell u do this do tat.. it is not tt i nv tell u anything, go find out on ur own, if i haf given this amt of information to other, they would haf complete the job to me. Also For Goodness Sake, i'm your leader, not ur father..get tt straight! I can be a irresponible leader but i did not. U ought to be thankful. I did something which i nv done in my life.. step by step for u..not to mention this is for someone who is studying the same course and same year with me... Where's the hell is ur responability...




second person, cannot find u.. international women of mystery.. hard to find u.. during lesson, you were not there.. got HP cannot get through, u say ur hp is spoil not in use.. sometime call ur house no, u were not there be it any reason.. i know i gif u last min instruction, beside the fact i hardly find u, i hope u can understand my diffculity, especially this grp.. nv have i been so upset b4 in poly life. I know u can have done ur job; tt's why when we were rushing the prototype, i did not ask u to help me even though it may be our grp work. U juz do ur thing while we were rushing and come out with the best.. By doing this, i hope i can "pay up" whatever i've done not enough.

One thing u said make me reflect abt myself very much.. till now i kept thinking abt it.. u said " You are not decisive" Ya.. I admit I am. I've always thought i'm suppose to be the best. Goes through leadership courses... ; I've told myself many times i want to change , tired many methods juz to correct it. But what u say maybe rite, maybe i've fail..

But u can't juz walk out of the room when our grp is facing a crisis of not able to present the whole proj the nxt morning. I saw u talking ur bag and leave. At that time, i thought, you haf thousands of reason to leave, i dun expect u to stay. I know nothing can retain u anymore.. i wanted to say, I'm sorry. I'm not fit to be your leader, go find other leader and hope u can work u all the best.


I told someone my grp consist of 3.5persons instead of 5. But She said only 2 person. As much as i want to agree with her, it's also my reasonability not able to get those 3 ppl started work. But nevertheless, I wish to thank them for their accompany throughtout this sememster. It make me reflect abt me.. Hopefully this sememster project, both party can learn frm it and nxt time if we manage to do project again, we will know each other and hopfully by that day comes, we will be to work towards a better future...Good luck!

9:58 PM


No use talking now..

deleted the last post due to audience request.. hahaha... It's hard being a true leader.. I can be like bahamut zero if i want to.. dun care about the well being, prob tt his member faced.. but what's good of being a leader without doing what he's suppose to do...

select case
case 1: your grp got some problematic ppl and you're the leader
you're stress!
case 2: your grp leader is a heck care type,
you're in deep shit
case 3: your grp leader is a heck care type and your grp got problemactic ppl,
you're in deeper shit..
end select

many things i've not said.. especially a grp like this.. frm the surface i'm like to be blamed for all.. but in fact, even though could haf done much better, i've try to work out. I'm so stress tat whenever i do my proj, i wonder what will happen nxt.. no use being personal at this stage.. thing dun get moving..

hope that they will still follow what i say, though they have the rights to rebel over it.. Shit don't juz go away.. you have to find a way to clear it and take care of it so tat it will not happen again in the future..

7:27 AM


"ShIt iS HiTtinG ThE FaN" - BrE 10 March 05

Yeah Man.. the shit is hitting the fan.. And what happen after that? The shit spread out.. and shit came falling our head.. this is what i can conclude for this week chaos shedule..

Monday:

Tue:

  • received email stating the there is extension of deadline! Bloody hell, worst is receive confirmation letter that they received my proposal.. any changes is too late...!!!
    following day have presentation of prototype.. watch the presentation by another grp and follow their way of doing prototype.
  • The following day also have Enterprise Quiz which is 35%. At night, spent 4hrs doing the UI for the prototype which all some of member did not do or do like dun do also the same like tat..Finally, Manage to get it almost done and send to breton for UI design.
    did not study much for exam the nxt day.. do till midnight for prototype

wed:

  • early morning still need to meet grp member for last touch up on prototype. Worst, after all the hard work on coding, our tutor say "No!"; did not meet requirement and do not want to view it at first.. tat mean Zero straight away.. WhAT??!! we work so hard and u din even view and say we cannot get even one percent!! What the hell, what about the another group which we saw the day b4, they are announced the best prototype and here we did not even get to present! WTF is tat.. Where's the fairness..
    afternoon got another shit.. exam and did not know much.. tried my best to do it but still too much remain undone.. WhO can i blame.. Me..

Thurs:

  • she bark me again for UI.. she say cannot finish dun blame her cos she dun haf the UI.. sheDIdn't i send her very long time ago.. . though it is not the latest one.. i remember asking her to get from bre one more time.. even if she dun haf she can do a blank page with all the field there.. it's juz the code tat's works tt matter.. When i'm going home, i thought i cou;d get some peace, but she called and say she did not haf the UI, the rating is not there............. ............. All the qns she said make no sense to me, if no web reference den add urself la.. what u add reference is teacher one all kind of shit.. you are supposed to do on fresh proj and somemore the "add reference" we learn on pract 1 of 2203.. dun tell me u dun how to do it.. even if so cannto flip book to recall issit,, muz tell me you dun know how to do it ar.. den when i ask u what kind of error is it can u tell me what is the error.. cos if u dun tell me how am i going to solve the thing for u.. dun say u dun know the error cos if u dun know, how u expect me to know, correct anot... Anyway, so stress answering her phone, i dunno the ans cos the UI is bre do one and u complaint me this and tat, how am i going to help u........ the only thing u say is dun haf, den how ar.. how am i going to tell u how.. dun tell me u dun know how to help urself ar.. not complainting to me how to do.. so STRESS!!!!!!!!!!!!! Den where is the another grp member? No where to be found.. Call, msg also no reply... At night msg bre, he said he had told her many time to do on a proxy page..UI has already been sent to her.. she has been complainting to me our grp got prob, everything is so mess up.. tell u in ur face, one of the prob is u.. can u stop complainting everytime when u do proj, meet with error dun make it like every one error, try to find the soln for urself, I do it, everyone also do it, so why u can't be like any other normal person??!! Why muz so depend on other, he is not coding partly because of u.. CAN U WAKE UP AND STOP BE SO ANNOYING ANOT? Do i need to give u one tight slap b4 u know what u are driving us into anot..
    shit is still there.. but study for Quiz the following day till 2 mid-night

fri:

wah.. nv wonder i could be so offensive.. feel even better if i can tell them in their face.. but time like this i dun care liao la..i feel even angry when i could not get thing done.. yeah.. that;s me.. i know muz change... but let me voice our first.. ihaha.. shit is falling...





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